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It's a merry thing watching your children develop their interests so passionately.

Seraphina is blossoming into quite the little artist which is no surprise to me as she is always singing and drawing something. Yesterday she ran to me and said "Mummy, come and see my street art!"

 

We have a very similar nature Seraphina and I. Both Librans, both lovers of all things beautiful and a past that runs oh so deep. If there is ever a child that triggers and stirs my very existence, it is Sera. x

Some of our similarities....

* Our emotional sensitivitity can be wild and foreboding, causing physical anxiety to varying degrees and at times, disconnection from our loved ones and each other.

* We both possess intense acuity to the ethers and the world around us, which has graciously inspired a longing to be of service and the desire to contribute much healing in the world.

* One of our most avid traits is a never ending quest to discover the truth and to actively participate in helping others to find their own truth. Even if it ruffles a few feathers ;)

So... Those who know and love us well, understand the challenges within our relationship that have presented themselves so meticulously since being reunited 8 years ago at her birth.

I am slowly piecing together our story and beginning to see and feel the blessings and lessons amidst the storms. It has taken me a while, but I finally feel like I am closer to connecting the dots on my parenting journey with Sera than I have ever been before.

 

There are many avenues for healing ourselves and this week I have remembered how powerful it can be to immerse yourself in art.

Not only is ART (which I like to imagine stands for Actively Remembering Truth) a gentle way to express and release painful experiences but it has the remarkable ability to instantly reconnect you to the infinite source of creativity that resides within each and every one of us, which is ultimately the universal love and creation of life itself!

Just like meditation, creative pursuits can lead you back to your core essence so that you may free yourself from limiting beliefs and self sabotaging behaviour. Art, in all it's forms, enables you the space to regroup and redefine the person you dream to be and to manifest the life you desire.

 

It is my endeavour to continue bringing more art and creativity into my life and here is how I hope to do this.

1. Create a sacred space within my home where I can retreat to daily to play with a creative project.

2. Spend time in quiet interlude, free from distractions, to develop my art.

3. Be more involved with my local art community and participate in classes and workshops.

4. Introduce more artistic and cultural experiences into our family life and play time together.

5. Switch off the TV and listen to music.

6. Spend more time in nature with pencils or camera.

7. Travel

8. Sleep, regenerate, dream......

9. Affirm "There IS enough time in the day!" and

10. Let go of the idea of perfection to allay procrastination. :)

 

So, to my dear Sweet Seraphina girl, thank you for once again opening my eyes to what is important in my life and for helping me to remember the things that bring me most joy. I Love You eternally xxx

 

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One woman's Drama is another woman's Karma

Yesterday morning was one of those days that are smooth as silk.  The kids were all chilled, I felt refreshed and the day to day activities were nothing short of sweet bliss.  On days like these I feel confident to venture off and complete the afternoon with a trip to the beach and playground.

My intention was to take some afternoon tea, get the kids settled in play, watch the sun go down over the bay and kick back with a Travel Guide, dreaming of our next family holiday... 

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The water was glistening with a gentle breeze floating up to kiss my cheeks.  The smell of the ocean was interspersed with the heady scent of coconut.  A nearby sunbather was lavishly applying the oil, reawakening memories of our visits to the South Pacific.  And the laughter of the children in their fantasy pirate world was a faint echo in my zen like existence... 

Oh how quickly things can change!!

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Have you ever had one of those days when life seems too perfect to be true and then all of a sudden, from out of nowhere something picks you up, tips you upside down and shakes any last remaining hope that your life is on the up out of you?  I am exaggerating of course, but at the time I was thinking "wtf's happening!!!"  You see, for the past three months my little family and I have had drama after drama the likes we have never seen.  Without sounding too pessimistic.. Today was another tally mark on the tree...

Seraphina - "Mum, Wade has a nose bleed!!"

Ok.  That's not a first so I was curious why the haste in her voice. I closed my book and walked toward the playground... Yes, Wade did have a nose bleed but he also had a massive Frankinstein like swelling and bruise on his forehead.  "Oh @#$% I thought - why??"  Wade is in his 11th year and was crying publicly so I figured I better get my Mum/Paramedic hat on and fast.  After sitting him down in the shade, my next port of call was to inform Lani (our teenager) who was hiding out in the car reading the latest teen novel by Stephanie Meyer of "Twilight" fame.  In my calm but Mum's serious voice I said..

"Lani, Wade has hit his head and has a nose bleed.  I need you to get out of the car and stay with him and the girls so I can go and get some napkins from the shop.  Lock up the car and bring the keys with you...Please".

Lani - "Yeah, but why do I have to get out of the car?"  In which I ever so gracefully replied..

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"GET OUT OF THE CAR!!!"

and I guess that's the main part of the performance she heard as she did get out of the car and she did lock it but.. she also successfully left the keys in the car.. with my handbag.. and my phone.. and our house keys..

I couldn't help but wonder.. for the millionth time.. "Is something trying to tell me something??"  I mean, I understand how one can perceive to be having a run of "bad luck" and I totally get the "Wheel of Life" principles but I couldn't for the life of me shift from this feeling of  doom and gloom and "What have I done to deserve this" mentality.

So during all this faith questioning, I was also in Mum mode, leaving my four children in the playground by the bay, on dusk, while I crossed the busiest road in the city to get to the only place I knew.  And know it well, as we lived there for next to two months in a tent while trying to get a rental property to call home.  It was 6.10pm and I knew they shut religiously at 6pm so I wasn't even sure that there would be anybody to help.. I needed to ring RACQ for road assistance, much to my embarrassment, as it was probably the fourth time since December.  I was also fretting at the thought of asking for help at the van park because we always felt like they were "helping us out" totally disregarding the fact that we were paying them over $400 a week for a patch of grass and hot showers.  Well, it was a nice patch of grass :)  Anyway, there I go again... always worried about what others will think of me.. too scared to ask for help when I need it.  Maybe that is what this post should be about.  My need to recognise that I am worthy of assistance?  Always.. 

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I managed to get into the office and the lady who was always unpleasant to deal with, still was, but she made the call for me and help was on the way.  **Gosh I really need to wrap this one up I know ;)**

But to completely paint the picture I need to tell you that this particular lady did the wrong thing by us at the end of our stay.  We didn't mind so much at the time because we were just so happy to be out of a tent and into a home.  We let it go..

So, as I waited for the locksmith to come, my children were safe and I contemplated the events of the day.

I came to the conclusion that not everything we experience as misfortune is actually so.  I discovered that my dilemma was an opportunity for someone else to make right of their past actions and for me to forgive and accept help when I needed it.

A very long post..  But I kinda think that's how I roll. :)

Much Love xx